Jan. 6, 2025
0101: Step One: WHO is Krystine Kellogg?
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(This Episode is a Re-Release)
In this first season, I’m still discovering what FLR means and how it can reshape a partnership. My goal is to bring you a real-world view with relatable stories and insights as I navigate this new and exciting relationship dynamic.
In this episode, I open up about my struggles with intimacy and connection in past relationships and how they affected my self-confidence. I also talk about a pivotal moment when I met someone who introduced me to alternative perspectives on relationships, which sparked my curiosity about FLR.
This episode is personal, honest, and serves as a stepping stone in my exploration of female-led dynamics.
Value to Listeners:
Listeners interested in alternative relationship styles will find this episode relatable and insightful. Krystine’s transparency about her journey, coupled with her exploration of FLR, offers valuable lessons on self-discovery, overcoming societal norms, and embracing new relationship possibilities. The episode is rich with relatable stories and key phrases that make it a helpful resource for those considering FLR or reflecting on their own relationship paths.
Key Takeaways:
- Reflecting on the Past: Krystine shares her struggles with unsatisfying, traditional relationships and how they shaped her understanding of intimacy.
- A Turning Point: She describes meeting a partner who introduced her to alternative views on sex and relationships, sparking her curiosity about FLR.
- Self-Discovery: Krystine highlights the importance of personal growth and self-confidence in preparing for non-traditional dynamics.
- Exploring FLR: The episode hints at how FLR has begun to redefine her perspective on connection and trust in relationships.
- Humor and Honesty: Krystine uses humor and authenticity to share her journey, making the content accessible and engaging for listeners.
Potential Listener Search Questions:
- "How do I start exploring female-led relationships?"
- "What are the first steps to understanding FLR?"
- "How can personal growth improve my relationship?"
- "What are real-life examples of overcoming traditional relationship struggles?"
- "How can humor and honesty help in discussing alternative relationships?"
Want to support the podcast and be involved with the behind-the-scenes, including voting on episode topics, as well as tiptoe with me into this whole "coaching" thing.
Also, my psuedo-autobiographical audio drama podcast "Control" will "re-debut" this spring as we drop the entire first season exclusively on Patreon!
Find my Patreon HERE!
Transcript
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This podcast is intended for mature audiences only.
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If you're not 18 years of age or older, there are thousands of other podcasts you can listen to and you can come back and visit us when you are 18.
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This podcast is meant solely for entertainment.
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We are not licensed doctors, lawyers, or therapists.
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We simply have a fascination with the lifestyle and I'd love to share it with you and get your thoughts and opinions.
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Hey, everyone.
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Join me on my journey from living a 100% vanilla life to tiptoeing into a whole new world I never knew existed.
00:00:41.049 --> 00:00:50.090
Exploring a life that puts a whole new spin on sex and its meaning to me, from chassis to devices and cup holding to my experiences in the lifestyle.
00:00:50.649 --> 00:00:56.590
I have met some amazing people and had some crazy experiences and learned a lot about myself.
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I grew up in a small town, graduated from a small high school, like so small that my teachers had all my aunts and uncles, everyone, in their classes.
00:01:16.590 --> 00:01:20.049
And then I spent most of my young adult life in a small city.
00:01:20.469 --> 00:01:25.730
Not quite as small as the town I grew up in, but still pretty small compared to what I'm used to now.
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I was married by the age of 19, had my first child at the age of 20, with a second child to follow at age 24.
00:01:35.250 --> 00:01:43.430
I could probably tell you the exact day I conceived my kids, because we rarely had sex or even touched for that matter.
00:01:44.349 --> 00:01:49.189
I think at the time, though, I just accepted this as the norm and didn't really think anything of it.
00:01:49.189 --> 00:01:54.769
I mean, I now know how wrong I was, but back then, I didn't know any better.
00:01:55.510 --> 00:02:04.049
Thinking I was done having kids, at age 30, I had my third child, and by age 31, I was divorced and raising my kids alone.
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As I stated above, my sex life during my marriage was less than satisfactory, but I didn't know any better.
00:02:11.469 --> 00:02:18.189
I just kept chugging along, not having any clue what the world had to offer when it came to sex and intimacy.
00:02:19.810 --> 00:02:25.789
However, at that point in my life, I don't know if I would have been open-minded enough to explore much of anything.
00:02:26.389 --> 00:02:29.530
I was in a very different mindset at that stage in my life.
00:02:30.490 --> 00:02:39.830
One thing that had been consistent was my lack of self-confidence and my apparent need to continue having people in my life that just put me down constantly.
00:02:40.689 --> 00:02:43.189
Enter my rebound relationship.
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Apparently, I have to make multiple wrong choices before I finally get to the right one, but it's a learning process.
00:02:51.590 --> 00:02:57.469
So I dated a guy that was 6 years younger than me and total opposite of my ex-husband.
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Total opposite.
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Not necessarily in good ways either.
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A few examples, my ex-husband was the least jealous person I'd ever met.
00:03:07.229 --> 00:03:09.370
The rebound, however, very jealous.
00:03:10.810 --> 00:03:17.990
My ex-husband, extremely faithful, never doubted his loyalty to me or our marriage, one time, not ever.
00:03:18.669 --> 00:03:26.969
The rebound was caught many times chatting and exchanging nudes with other women, which totally destroyed my already shit self-esteem.
00:03:28.129 --> 00:03:38.810
I will say, my rebound relationship included much more touching and sex than my marriage did, but the type of sex, and the time it lasted, was all about the same.
00:03:38.810 --> 00:03:43.550
About 5 minutes on a good night, and was pretty much vanilla, 100%.
00:03:43.550 --> 00:03:47.770
Basic missionary, maybe a little bit of doggy style, that was the extent of it.
00:03:48.210 --> 00:03:54.210
So, here I was again, in a relationship and feeling trapped and less than satisfied.
00:03:55.250 --> 00:04:03.849
After some pretty bad fights that included some very harsh words and abusive actions, I finally started pulling away from the rebound relationship.
00:04:03.849 --> 00:04:13.270
I broke things off for good, but we continued having sex, which was actually better for me, and I think it was because I knew he had to leave when we were done.
00:04:13.610 --> 00:04:29.670
Kind of a wham-bam, thank you sir, be on your way, which maybe was unacceptable, according to how some people thought, or I don't know, I'm sure there was things that were said about me that were less than admirable, but it is what it is.
00:04:29.670 --> 00:04:35.769
So, this friends with benefits relationship continued for about 6 months to a year, and I began to get bored.
00:04:36.310 --> 00:04:43.310
I signed up for a few online dating apps and chatted here and there with some boys slash guys, but nothing real promising.
00:04:43.949 --> 00:04:58.790
I was about to give up and just accept my life with fake dicks that required batteries, but at least they lasted longer than 30 seconds, when lo and behold, I found a man who totally turned my world upside down, in a good way.
00:04:58.790 --> 00:05:07.709
He shattered every wall I had put up around me, and blew my fucking mind with his views on relationships, intimacy, and sex.
00:05:08.269 --> 00:05:13.029
A whole new world opened up to me that I had no idea existed.
00:05:13.730 --> 00:05:16.189
Thank you so much for listening to today's episode.
00:05:16.470 --> 00:05:20.529
I'd love to be able to connect with you, so the best place to do that is probably Twitter.
00:05:21.029 --> 00:05:23.129
You can look for at Christine Kellogg.
00:05:23.449 --> 00:05:27.209
Also, I can be reached at christinekellogg at gmail.com.
00:05:27.209 --> 00:05:32.110
If you would like to support this podcast, find me on Patreon at christinekellogg.
00:05:32.529 --> 00:05:41.110
I have all sorts of exclusive content like photos, an erotic audio drama, premium Snapchat, custom Spank Bank audios, and more.
00:05:42.750 --> 00:05:45.290
Again, thank you so much.
00:05:45.389 --> 00:05:54.410
Be good human beings, stay safe, and I will continue on the next episode when we talk about me getting my mind blown about female-led relationships.
00:05:55.290 --> 00:05:55.569
Mwah!
00:00:03.890 --> 00:00:07.269
This podcast is intended for mature audiences only.
00:00:07.450 --> 00:00:15.349
If you're not 18 years of age or older, there are thousands of other podcasts you can listen to and you can come back and visit us when you are 18.
00:00:15.949 --> 00:00:18.170
This podcast is meant solely for entertainment.
00:00:18.609 --> 00:00:21.489
We are not licensed doctors, lawyers, or therapists.
00:00:22.149 --> 00:00:27.850
We simply have a fascination with the lifestyle and I'd love to share it with you and get your thoughts and opinions.
00:00:30.809 --> 00:00:31.929
Hey, everyone.
00:00:32.429 --> 00:00:40.149
Join me on my journey from living a 100% vanilla life to tiptoeing into a whole new world I never knew existed.
00:00:41.049 --> 00:00:50.090
Exploring a life that puts a whole new spin on sex and its meaning to me, from chassis to devices and cup holding to my experiences in the lifestyle.
00:00:50.649 --> 00:00:56.590
I have met some amazing people and had some crazy experiences and learned a lot about myself.
00:01:05.689 --> 00:01:15.769
I grew up in a small town, graduated from a small high school, like so small that my teachers had all my aunts and uncles, everyone, in their classes.
00:01:16.590 --> 00:01:20.049
And then I spent most of my young adult life in a small city.
00:01:20.469 --> 00:01:25.730
Not quite as small as the town I grew up in, but still pretty small compared to what I'm used to now.
00:01:26.450 --> 00:01:34.250
I was married by the age of 19, had my first child at the age of 20, with a second child to follow at age 24.
00:01:35.250 --> 00:01:43.430
I could probably tell you the exact day I conceived my kids, because we rarely had sex or even touched for that matter.
00:01:44.349 --> 00:01:49.189
I think at the time, though, I just accepted this as the norm and didn't really think anything of it.
00:01:49.189 --> 00:01:54.769
I mean, I now know how wrong I was, but back then, I didn't know any better.
00:01:55.510 --> 00:02:04.049
Thinking I was done having kids, at age 30, I had my third child, and by age 31, I was divorced and raising my kids alone.
00:02:05.010 --> 00:02:11.009
As I stated above, my sex life during my marriage was less than satisfactory, but I didn't know any better.
00:02:11.469 --> 00:02:18.189
I just kept chugging along, not having any clue what the world had to offer when it came to sex and intimacy.
00:02:19.810 --> 00:02:25.789
However, at that point in my life, I don't know if I would have been open-minded enough to explore much of anything.
00:02:26.389 --> 00:02:29.530
I was in a very different mindset at that stage in my life.
00:02:30.490 --> 00:02:39.830
One thing that had been consistent was my lack of self-confidence and my apparent need to continue having people in my life that just put me down constantly.
00:02:40.689 --> 00:02:43.189
Enter my rebound relationship.
00:02:44.150 --> 00:02:50.949
Apparently, I have to make multiple wrong choices before I finally get to the right one, but it's a learning process.
00:02:51.590 --> 00:02:57.469
So I dated a guy that was 6 years younger than me and total opposite of my ex-husband.
00:02:58.169 --> 00:02:58.990
Total opposite.
00:02:59.590 --> 00:03:01.610
Not necessarily in good ways either.
00:03:02.409 --> 00:03:06.629
A few examples, my ex-husband was the least jealous person I'd ever met.
00:03:07.229 --> 00:03:09.370
The rebound, however, very jealous.
00:03:10.810 --> 00:03:17.990
My ex-husband, extremely faithful, never doubted his loyalty to me or our marriage, one time, not ever.
00:03:18.669 --> 00:03:26.969
The rebound was caught many times chatting and exchanging nudes with other women, which totally destroyed my already shit self-esteem.
00:03:28.129 --> 00:03:38.810
I will say, my rebound relationship included much more touching and sex than my marriage did, but the type of sex, and the time it lasted, was all about the same.
00:03:38.810 --> 00:03:43.550
About 5 minutes on a good night, and was pretty much vanilla, 100%.
00:03:43.550 --> 00:03:47.770
Basic missionary, maybe a little bit of doggy style, that was the extent of it.
00:03:48.210 --> 00:03:54.210
So, here I was again, in a relationship and feeling trapped and less than satisfied.
00:03:55.250 --> 00:04:03.849
After some pretty bad fights that included some very harsh words and abusive actions, I finally started pulling away from the rebound relationship.
00:04:03.849 --> 00:04:13.270
I broke things off for good, but we continued having sex, which was actually better for me, and I think it was because I knew he had to leave when we were done.
00:04:13.610 --> 00:04:29.670
Kind of a wham-bam, thank you sir, be on your way, which maybe was unacceptable, according to how some people thought, or I don't know, I'm sure there was things that were said about me that were less than admirable, but it is what it is.
00:04:29.670 --> 00:04:35.769
So, this friends with benefits relationship continued for about 6 months to a year, and I began to get bored.
00:04:36.310 --> 00:04:43.310
I signed up for a few online dating apps and chatted here and there with some boys slash guys, but nothing real promising.
00:04:43.949 --> 00:04:58.790
I was about to give up and just accept my life with fake dicks that required batteries, but at least they lasted longer than 30 seconds, when lo and behold, I found a man who totally turned my world upside down, in a good way.
00:04:58.790 --> 00:05:07.709
He shattered every wall I had put up around me, and blew my fucking mind with his views on relationships, intimacy, and sex.
00:05:08.269 --> 00:05:13.029
A whole new world opened up to me that I had no idea existed.
00:05:13.730 --> 00:05:16.189
Thank you so much for listening to today's episode.
00:05:16.470 --> 00:05:20.529
I'd love to be able to connect with you, so the best place to do that is probably Twitter.
00:05:21.029 --> 00:05:23.129
You can look for at Christine Kellogg.
00:05:23.449 --> 00:05:27.209
Also, I can be reached at christinekellogg at gmail.com.
00:05:27.209 --> 00:05:32.110
If you would like to support this podcast, find me on Patreon at christinekellogg.
00:05:32.529 --> 00:05:41.110
I have all sorts of exclusive content like photos, an erotic audio drama, premium Snapchat, custom Spank Bank audios, and more.
00:05:42.750 --> 00:05:45.290
Again, thank you so much.
00:05:45.389 --> 00:05:54.410
Be good human beings, stay safe, and I will continue on the next episode when we talk about me getting my mind blown about female-led relationships.
00:05:55.290 --> 00:05:55.569
Mwah!
